My mother, my absolute best friend, I could never adequately express how deep my love is for you, and how much I have missed you the last five month's during your battle, and will continue to miss you each day. I know that I will never be the same without you here on earth. I am truly and utterly broken. The only thing that makes me feel better is knowing, that you are no longer in a bed day in and day out, no longer in pain, no longer just existing. You are now in paradise, and I'm sure walking in the fields of radiant flowers that you so clearly described,the last few weeks. I know you are with me and I thank you for already sending me signs. I know you didn't want to leave us, but I'm sure now that you are rid of your earthly body and are free, that you are happy. You have taught us so much, and most importantly, strength. We will always remember how brave you are and I just pray that God continues to give us strength and comfort us. One of the last things you told me was that you were going to be okay and I believe you. You told me that I would be okay because I have Jason and that I needed to take care of the kids, and I promise you that I will. Until we meet again, you are in my heart.. my dear sweet beautiful mother. I love you, Joann